1. As he approached Jerusalem near the end of his ministry and saw the city, Jesus wept over it and said, "If you, even you, had only known on this day what would bring you peace — but now it is hidden from your eyes." Luke 19:41. The word used to describe Jesus' weeping over Jerusalem is that of a person wailing or bursting into sobbing. He had poured his life into people in and around Jerusalem but they did not respond. Wow.
2. When Jesus realized that his own death was near, he went to a quiet place and prayed. We are told in Hebrews 5:7 that he agonized with "loud crying and tears." We are told in Luke 22 that he fell to the ground, praying fervently and profusely.
C.S. Lewis wrote, "We pray however we can, with whatever words we can. We pray with our our sweat, with our tears. And with whatever friends we have who will sit with us in the darkness."
I have to keep working at being real, with real emotions … positive and painful. I don't want to slowly transform into an empty shell with a smiley faced painted on it.